They were travelling on a long trip.But the silence hanging in air was deafening.The morbid silence shattered her into thousands of pieces each second it prolonged.She stole a glance at him.He was quiet as ever,he is never quiet,always chattering,making fun and doing something or the other.
Reminiscents of pasts floated in front of her eyes.They are sitting in an auto travelling to one end
of the city from the other,same as today.But things were so different.The playful banters,the laughter,the shining faces nothing was there today.All seems to be stolen,sucked up in the abyss of time.
She still loves him the same way she did before.But he doesn’t wants to wander over the untravelled roads of love anymore.His callous,strange behavior broke her heart,choked her breath.But she can’t change anything about it.Neither can she change him,nor herself.
He started doing facebook in his phone to pass through the long journey.His love was next to him but she meant nothing to him at this moment,she was not his love anymore.She was not even just another person,not even a good friend,not even an enemy,she was nothing anymore,nothing.She was just some burden he has to bear for next few hours because of circumstances,which has brought them together after so long.
Again she was lost in the past.The events of their first meeting till last flashed through her mind in a few seconds.She still doesn’t knows what she did wrong?Was she not understanding enough,she didn’t love him enough?Was she not a beautiful person,inside and out,she wasn’t good enough?
She concluded she is not good enough for him and she is not destined to love or be loved.Fate has always snatched all those from her whom she loved the most.Her Mom,the only person she loved more than anything in the world left her alone.She didn’t wanted to,she fought bravely with destiny and herself for 2 years but leukemia won in the end.This wounded her deeply but she started learning to live,because life goes on.She started to love again but he again left her wounded.Wounds which can perhaps never be healed,not even by time,the best healer of all.
But she learned to conceal those lethal wounds and live,laugh,dance and work.Suddenly the auto came to a halt.She snapped back to present.The journey was over.It was really a long journey,she travelled her whole life in past half an hour.
6 comments:
Something very good awaits you dear, don't break down, just hold on to hope a little long.
Don't know how long I need to wait dear,it seems to be a never ending one.I m tired.
its a pretty good journey of memories
U found it good?But it was one of the most painful journey for her...
He was waiting for her under a tree for the last 3 hours . The last 3 months was the most painful time he has ever endured . On the cusp of a very important phase of his life , he squandered away whatever life has promised him . At a time when most of his friends are busy carving out career options for themselves , here he was reduced to a nervous wreck . His head was cursing his heart for giving another chance to this relationship a year back at her insistence . He never made a move. In fact he used to avoid places where she went so that neither would be bothered into running into each other . Most of the times he sacrificed going to outings , get - together and celebrations by common friends . This resulted in his friends alienating him and dismissed him as a snob. Yet he silently bore the tag of snob just that she is not inconvenienced by his presence because he has seen that in her eyes.
Slowly but steadily he was able to pick up the pieces left behind in his previous breakup . Slowly he built a new set of friends . Slowly he found his mettle and was again flourishing in his studies . Then suddenly one week before his and her anniversary , she showed up in a friend's get together . Even if he never bothered her , her face , her eyes ... those perfect orbs with pitch black iris ...and that infectious smile always was the primary thoughts of his sleepless nights . Today again he got to see them in its full splendor so unexpectedly . But what followed was even a bigger shock . She made the first move inquiring how he was . One thing led to another and the next thing he knew , that he was spending sleepless nights talking to her . At first he was distant to her , his heart was wary of another breakup . Yet she persisted and asked him to give their relationship another try . He relented and what followed is another vicious circle of euphoria and heartbreak.
These things played in the last 3 hours when he was waiting for her . Those 3 hours seemed an eternity but he was willing to wait hoping against hope that he could salvage whatever he can . He was naive enough to think that if he could give a chance , so could she . How wrong he was ? If she does not care for him standing for her under that tree in the sweltering month of May in the afternoon , why will she care to give him another chance ?
He did not have to time to think anymore as he could see her coming out of the gate . He could not stop even once loving her . Yet he was introduced to a cold stare on her face . She fished out a ringing cellphone from her bag . Instantly her face softened . She started to affectionately talk to the unknown voice . Realization dawned on him like somebody emptied a bucket of ice cold water . For the next moment he wryly smiled when her eyes met his and he walked off in the general direction of his home . She was puzzled at his sudden change of behavior . Quickly she disconnected her cellphone and called out his name . He ignored and just walked off.
3 hrs????I can imagine how long the journey had been for him and how painful and yet full of hopes and promises of finding something really precious you lost long back.You have got patience and you really did love wholeheartedly.The loss is for the one who lost true love and not for the one who loved truely.As I said its pleasure listening to you and I don't think I will ever get bored of it :P You get bored of inanimate objects but how can you be bored of life?
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