My first Pooja in Kolkata

I know not love

I know not love...
For wat is love but pain wen I m far apart from my beloved?
Or is it d joy wid which my heart pounds on jst his thought?
Or is it d sound tht I hear in each footstep which appears 2 b his...
I know not love but I know the agony of being distant from thy lover...
I know not love but I know the fluttering in my soul on seing his smile...
I know not love but I know d tears which thy can't restrain knowing abt the pain of thy beloved..
I know not love bcoz it doesn't lets me sleep...
I know not love bcoz once touched by love one will not b d same forever...
For love brings change...
Changes deeply profound in one's soul...
Love leaves wounds unhealable..
Love heals unhealable wounds...
Is it the healer or the killer?
Hence I know not love...
Love lets me dream...
Love gives me wings...
But love makes me immobile at times..
Struck with horror and lifeless...
So,I know not love..

Hope

One day I lost my soul
Somewhere in the midst of this world
Soul which fought daily
Soul which cried daily
Soul which each one of had once
Which I preserved through, of the years thy passed
Which I kept survived through all the toils of life
But still I have hope
I have hope it is here only, somewhere within me
Just waiting for me to find it
I have hope that each of us will find ours one day
I have hope that one day we all can hear
We all can listen to what our soul says
Soul which is lost in dark
But we all can get it back
All we just need is to
To have hope that we can make a difference
To have hope and not give up
To have hope that we can change this world
To have hope that we can make it a better place to live
HOPE is what can bring a change
When every thing seems lost in life
what one has is hope
what one should have is hope
Hope that all clouds will clear one day
Hope that the sun will shine once more
Hope that this night will end
Hope that dreams often come true
So let's keep dreaming and keep hoping

Thoughts in vain

Sometimes I really wonder that how amazing life is?Each second each moment we are learning something.How each individual is different from each other yet so similar.How each one of us interact with one another,how everyone’s perspectives differ to such a great extent but then too we jell so nicely with each other inspite of all the differences.How come there are so many relations some gifted to us by birth and most which we make with people around us.From a stranger to a friend the journey is never that long but the journey which we travel inwards in this process is far too long to describe for me at least.The emotions all of them are really great to wonder about whether it be love,anger,hatred anything.There are numerous emotions many which can’t be explained.Without getting physically hurt we feel so much pain sometimes isn’t that amazing to ponder over?We can forget the instances of getting hurt physically that pain lasts as long as the wound lasts.But when our soul is hurt that pain lasts forever.We never forget those instances.God is really great he created so many things that we are yet not able to discover ourselves.We are not able to understand ourselves through our whole life how can we even imagine to understand others.But the thing is what I feel is we understand others specially those close to us more than we understand ourselves.Look another amazing discovery I had again.Consequences and circumstances are sometimes really mystic yet charming and make us wonder that life is much beyond what we perceive and think about it.Its fanthom of depths cannot be measured throughout one’s last breath but can be felt all throughout and experienced.This amazing feeling many a times in our lives when we are all alone with our soul, when we are with ourselves and a divine feeling spread in the atmosphere where we get lost in our thoughts.When no boundaries seem to be there we are all free to fly around and we see the whole world we get a realization of what we are ,where we are, what we want, what we ought to do in our lives,what are we doing now and those moments when we commited some mistakes,we want to revert all such times which gave us a deep scar in our hearts for a lifetime,moments we want to forget yet those are the moments which made us what we are,what we will be is up to us.